Candace Kay Blogs

2025.07.04

As I watch my 2-year-old son Khaza zoom around the room, his curiosity and energy are undeniable – but so are the signs that something might be different.

Lately, I’ve noticed that Khaza has trouble sitting still, refusing to stay in a chair unless he’s strapped in. He often tunes out when I call his name, only responding when I raise my voice. And then there’s his fascination with loud noises – vacuum cleaners, motorcycles, and trucks are like magnets to him.

As a mom, it’s hard not to wonder if these quirks might be more than just typical toddler behavior. Could they be early signs of Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)? I’m not sure, but I’m determined to learn more and support my little boy every step of the way.

Some days with Khaza are overwhelming, to say the least. The constant energy, the refusal to listen, the meltdowns over seemingly minor things… it’s exhausting. There are times when I feel like I’m at my breaking point, like I’m just trying to survive until bedtime. And yet, even on the toughest days, there are moments of pure joy, of connection and love that make all the chaos worth it.

When Khaza curls up in my lap and gives me a squeeze, or when he looks up at me with those big brown eyes and says ‘Mama’, my heart melts. It’s a reminder that, no matter how challenging things get, this little boy is worth it.

That love and devotion are what keep me going, even when the days feel too much to handle. As we navigate the unknown, I’m committed to being Khaza’s rock, his advocate, and his safe haven. Whatever the future holds, I’ll be here, cheering him on every step of the way.

Conclusion

Our journey with potential ASD is just beginning, and I’m not sure what the future holds. But what I do know is that I’ll be here, fighting for my son, advocating for his needs, and loving him with every fiber of my being. If you’re navigating a similar journey, I see you. I hear you. And I want you to know that you’re not alone. There’s a community of parents, caregivers, and advocates who are walking this path alongside you.

Remember to be kind to yourself, to take things one step at a time, and to cherish the moments of joy that make it all worth it. And most importantly, remember that your child is worth it – every struggle, every meltdown, and every triumph. Keep loving, keep fighting, and keep shining a light on the beauty and uniqueness of your child.